Starting to plan the next Big Trip...Australia/New Zealand: Jan/Feb 2007.
Friend Hank in CA has been there. He warns: "Be careful about New Zealand, Mare. It suits you. You may never want to come back."
Maybe so. The world is a wide, wide place, and I have lived my life backwards. At an earlier age I nursed and lost loved ones, helped raise children not my own, fostered lost people in the attic of my home so they could figure out the next path to take. Now all that is finished, and I feel free to travel about with my life in tow. At almost 51, I have learned the deep lesson that I have nothing to lose. Here's a secret: none of us do. What we think is loss is just a swift kick in the pants to set us towards something unseen. In this black and white world, the grey of the unknown is so much more interesting.
The other evening, in Henry Miller's Stand Still Like the Hummingbird, I read about a man named George Dibbern. He was a German who, in 1930, got in a thirty-two foot boat and sailed alone to New Zealand, leaving his wife (who urged him to go) and family forever. Miller wrote:
"There is no hope for him in Germany; he is not herd-like enough to be a good Communist, or militarist enough to be a good Nazi. He has had it out with himself and he has decided he will not be a living corpse."
It took Dibbern five years to reach New Zealand. In the middle of the ocean, he threw most of the books he brought with him overboard, and relied on his own thoughts. And he started writing a book, eventually published in 1941, called Quest.
Dibbern wrote: "How much we talk about freedom, we who are so unfree, how much we talk about Christianity, when all our nations seem to cry of service to other gods! It may be in the end as it is with me. A careless remark about going to sea in my small boat finally forced me to eat my own words, or sail."
Dibbern wrote more: "When a soldier gets his marching orders he just goes, he doesn't know where, or for how long, or if he will ever come back again. Nobody ever questions it, or objects, or thinks it's queer; but if one follows one's own God, one's conscience, everybody objects - strange, how little man belongs to himself, how much he is yet the community's property."
Dibbern is a Taoist, methinks. "Pain is what ultimately brings home the lesson," he wrote. Miller concurs: "Some may think that Dibbern was unadaptable, a man unfit for human society. This is not true. If anything, it is society which is unfit to accommodate itself to a man like Dibbern. These men are far ahead of society; their tragedy is that they are condemned to wait for others to catch up."
Yet one of the most interesting statements Dibbern writes:
"One's greatest security is to be loved. Banks fail, love never," he says.
I've been told this traveling bug of mine is "running away," that it is "immature," that I should be "settled." Believe me, I have stepped up to the plate more than once, and have embraced enough maturity to last a couple of lifetimes. No more maturity in this one. You can have mine. I don't need it anymore.
Very cool, Mary. This installment of your blog is right on time with things going on in my life.
Toni Arrington
Posted by: Toni Arrington | June 05, 2006 at 09:43 AM
Good news for you:
I just read that Amtrak & New Zealand Rail have joined forces to offer train service from San Francisco to Auckland beginning fall 2006. I think the train would offer a more scenic trip than a jet, and you could keep your blog up-to-date in the comfort of your train seat - not cramped into an airliner.
I wonder if it stops in Boston on the way?
;)
Posted by: David R. Mankin | June 05, 2006 at 01:32 PM
"Growing up is awfuler than all the awful things that ever were."
P. Pan
Posted by: Julie Swanson | June 06, 2006 at 01:18 AM
Coincidentally, the train is scheduled to stop in Neverland too.
Posted by: David R. Mankin | June 06, 2006 at 05:40 PM
Dear Mary,
I periodically google George Dibbern and was delighted to see your reference to Quest. As the author of Dibbern's biography, "Dark Sun: Te Rapunga and the Quest of George Dibbern", (Auckland: David Ling Publishing Ltd., 2004) I continue to be amazed that, though he died (in Auckland) in 1962, George Dibbern continues to inspire people of all ages and to validate their own attempts to break free. For a seemingly ordinary guy he has left an incredible legacy.
See my Dibbern website for lots of info about the man, the boat (still in Auckland), his passport and, of course, "Dark Sun".
Peace,
Erika G.
Posted by: Erika Grundmann | June 18, 2006 at 02:02 PM